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Sep. 27th, 2001 07:30 pmMy mom called me at 7am this morning. I was happy for all of 60 seconds before she told me that the doctors found another tumor in my grandmother and that she's getting another kemo treatment. They don't even know exactly how to treat it -- she has a very rare form of fast-spreading cancer. How she's "doing better," I have no idea. Because of that, my mom pushed her return flight back and won't be coming home until October 11th. It's hard for her to be there because she has to take care of everyone. She can't even cry 'cause there's no place for her to be alone to. I couldn't even cry on the phone because if I did, she'd start to. Even her cousin is being... not helpful.. telling my grandmother that she's suffering now because she did something wrong in a past life. And one night my grandmother had a nightmare that two people -- one was a man with glasses -- were trying to.. I dunno... grab her or smother her or something. My mom thinks that it really did happen because my grandmother's energy is so low and that the room got really cold all of a sudden. The lady that is helping to take care of her went and bought a bunch of Quan Yins and talismans to put under her pillow and I guess that helped. I dunno. It really freaked me out when I heard that.
My aunt.. well, she has issues. She still can't understand Power of Attorney and why they need it... in case. She's not stupid. She's works for Motorola's R&D Dept. And she's just.. she's being a tralk, that's all.
My grandfather... well, he says that if my grandmother goes, he's going, too. My mom told him that he has to stay for her and me and my brother, and a lot of other people. He said no.
My father still hasn't fixed the problem with the phone at home, so my mother can't call and talk to my brother. She finally dialed my father's cell phone one morning and he got all annoyed that she was using his cell phone minutes. Boo fucking hoo. When she asked to speak with my brother, he said that he was downstairs. Okay... so go get him! What. The. Hell. Way to help the situation.
After I talked to my mom, I just kinda puttered around the quad for a while then took a really long nap. I pretty much just got up now. It's not that I was tired... not the kind of tired where you just need some sleep because you were up all night partying. I think it's more the stressed type of tired. I just want everything to go away.. everything to be fun and dandy. I want to be.. well, I want to be 10. Not me when I was 10, but what it should be like when you're 10 and the worst thing in life are stupid kids in your class not liking you. Hell, I'd like to be back in high school right now. I don't want to be a "grown-up." I don't want to have to be the one who has to take care of things anymore. I don't want to have to take of myself or other people or be responsible for things. I want to be a dumb, selfish, irresponsible kid.
The World doesn't work that way and Life's a bitch.
Then you die.
My aunt.. well, she has issues. She still can't understand Power of Attorney and why they need it... in case. She's not stupid. She's works for Motorola's R&D Dept. And she's just.. she's being a tralk, that's all.
My grandfather... well, he says that if my grandmother goes, he's going, too. My mom told him that he has to stay for her and me and my brother, and a lot of other people. He said no.
My father still hasn't fixed the problem with the phone at home, so my mother can't call and talk to my brother. She finally dialed my father's cell phone one morning and he got all annoyed that she was using his cell phone minutes. Boo fucking hoo. When she asked to speak with my brother, he said that he was downstairs. Okay... so go get him! What. The. Hell. Way to help the situation.
After I talked to my mom, I just kinda puttered around the quad for a while then took a really long nap. I pretty much just got up now. It's not that I was tired... not the kind of tired where you just need some sleep because you were up all night partying. I think it's more the stressed type of tired. I just want everything to go away.. everything to be fun and dandy. I want to be.. well, I want to be 10. Not me when I was 10, but what it should be like when you're 10 and the worst thing in life are stupid kids in your class not liking you. Hell, I'd like to be back in high school right now. I don't want to be a "grown-up." I don't want to have to be the one who has to take care of things anymore. I don't want to have to take of myself or other people or be responsible for things. I want to be a dumb, selfish, irresponsible kid.
The World doesn't work that way and Life's a bitch.
Then you die.
